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Rules of Engagement 2.5: Red Oni

Never trust a demon. He has a hundred motives for anything he does ... Ninety-nine of them, at least, are malevolent.

You won't find angels in hell, only demons that know how to play with yours

It's fucking disgusting how much I have to keep dealing with the system just to get any leverage and a chance to see my kid. If I have to be the demon warrior to get things done, so be it. I'm always better as the red ONI anyways. I'm always better when I'm angry and driven. Maybe this constant actual anger is healthier for me than the apathy of expecting others to do this shut for me. I'll examine every avenue to get things down, if I won't back down from her then I won't back down from them. It's time to channel all this anger and frustration into a positive direction and make changes. The way it's going right right now nothing is changes, if it ruffles a few feathers or makes things harder for a few people so be it, I don't give a fuck. This needs to end not drown in politics. I want to see my son before he turns 18. I'm sick of the run around and the fact that things are playing right into her plans. If I have to be the dark and angry brooding one who has to kick down a door and make people hear me... i will this has gone on for far too fucking long... if i have to unleash the demon and have his loud belligerent voice heard, So be it.

Current Mood: Anger, Determination.
Current Music: Eminem, '97 Bonnie and Clyde

People shouldn't call for demons unless they really mean what they say.

But she had known, better than anyone else, what demons he had faced, had known how hard he had fought to free himself from them. That he had lost the fight in the end made the struggle no less honorable.

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