Rules of Engagement 2.5: Red Oni

Never trust a demon. He has a hundred motives for anything he does ... Ninety-nine of them, at least, are malevolent.

You won't find angels in hell, only demons that know how to play with yours

It's fucking disgusting how much I have to keep dealing with the system just to get any leverage and a chance to see my kid. If I have to be the demon warrior to get things done, so be it. I'm always better as the red ONI anyways. I'm always better when I'm angry and driven. Maybe this constant actual anger is healthier for me than the apathy of expecting others to do this shut for me. I'll examine every avenue to get things down, if I won't back down from her then I won't back down from them. It's time to channel all this anger and frustration into a positive direction and make changes. The way it's going right right now nothing is changes, if it ruffles a few feathers or makes things harder for a few people so be it, I don't give a fuck. This needs to end not drown in politics. I want to see my son before he turns 18. I'm sick of the run around and the fact that things are playing right into her plans. If I have to be the dark and angry brooding one who has to kick down a door and make people hear me... i will this has gone on for far too fucking long... if i have to unleash the demon and have his loud belligerent voice heard, So be it.

Current Mood: Anger, Determination.
Current Music: Eminem, '97 Bonnie and Clyde

People shouldn't call for demons unless they really mean what they say.

But she had known, better than anyone else, what demons he had faced, had known how hard he had fought to free himself from them. That he had lost the fight in the end made the struggle no less honorable.

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

Franco Un-American.

I hate everyone. I just pretend I don’t because I’m chasing this false inner peace, thats being constantly eroded by outsiders. I am happy, I was at peace. But I do see my country and more importantly my city for what it’s for and I’m getting angry again. Maybe I do need to be angry. Maybe I do need to rebel. Maybe I do need to speak out despite the fact that it can be used against me and hurt those I love. Nothing fucking new to me. This apathy has gotten me nowhere, this trying to be at peace was working but maybe I need to be angry, maybe I need to rail agianst the things that once were right have now went wrong. This isn’t a world I want my child growing up in, and he’s grown. But this isn’t the world I promised him. This is something else. This city wants to pick a fight with me? Cool, I know what busybody bitch it is. Don’t think I will tolerate any threats to those that I care for or myself. You want to fucking start a war? Maybe it’s time for me to be angry again.

The Sinner.

I make no Bones that I’m a bad person, and I’m someone who has made mistakes. I take pride in being the bad guy, the villain and most of all a willing sinner. I will take full responsibility for all the things I have done. It’s the one thing I didn’t do I was convicted on. But that was my choice, when I make the gates of St. Peter or the gates of hell I can be judged. After all I have a throne waiting. I hold no illusions as to where I’m headed. The thing is people like you will join me there. I’ll see you on the seventh layer reserved for betrayers. The sad part is that if you remained a fucking ghost I would not have had an issue with you. But you had to make it fucking personal. Father Time has a long memory, and I don’t forget anything. You have some serious skeletons rattling in your closet and I can destroy you. I’m already dead, I’ve already been killed. One shot, Boom. Children’s aid won. Nothing you or anyone else can do, can hurt me. You can only hurt those I care about. And ...

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