The Shortest Straw VII

A mediocre person tells. A good person explains. A superior person demonstrates. A great person inspires others to see for themselves..

My Friendship and support isn't fucking free, and I'm getting sick of people that are supposedly supportive in my life only around when they need or fucking want something from me, I'm going into the fucking challenge of my goddamn life, and i don't need the distraction from selfish fucking people who show there true colors the minute anything is fucking asked from them. I just sacrificed a week and I'm not terribly happy about it. there is a reason i choose my battles wisely and when i see others around me that frustrate me because i don't have patience for, it makes it real fucking easy to withdraw from everyone, Only those that are truly important should be the ones I'm fucking focusing on, especially at this late stage, the rest of them fuck em. Deep down I'm Not a nice Person and when push comes to shove I'm going to protect my own and not be there for others who are just taking advantage. you place Me in the fucking cross hairs and I'm not going to easily forget that.

Current Mood: Unappreciated.
Current Music: bad meets Evil, Welcome to Hell.

Fuck all you fair-weather friends, all I need is him

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Cowabunga.

Back to the job search i go... not really anything to do right now but play turtles smash up and watch tv so i decided to wander downtown and look for a job. I am feeling really good at the moment and trying to ride this positive feeling as long as it lasts and not let anything get me down. Current Mood: Positive. Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after another.

The Threat.

I an not a nice person. I am not polite or nice. I am scary and intimidating and I draw power from that fact. You fuck with the people I love and hurt them, I’m going to damage you in kind. I want people afraid of me. It means I’m respected. It means you’re intimidated. I would rather be horrifying damaged and leave with nothing if it gives me the power and the freedom to protect my friend’s and family. Keep in mind a man with nothing to lose once had everything slip thru his fingers. And I have no fucking problem being a threat, to you, to my enemies, to society. You name it. I simply don’t care. The best defence has always been to confront and attack whatever the source of the problem. It hasn’t always brought me victory but at some point it’s brought me peace knowing that I’ve never backed down or done anything to hurt anyone. Just responded to what has happened to me and the ones I love. You don’t want to be my enemy. It’s a bad place to be. And once you are marked as su...

The Remedy

I am reminded when I need someone how truly alone I am in this world. Because for as much as I am the constant and the shoulder to cry on. The same respect isn’t accorded to me, obviously. It hasn’t been in years. This is why I have never and will never need you. I don’t need anyone. Especially when I am fucking hurting over a lost freind. I hurt, I get to do that. I’m fine with that. I process and move on. I spend a couple days where I block out the world and keep going but I’m fine. I don’t accord anyone I don’t trust or respect the time of day. It’s not about who it is. I’ll willing burn a bridge im fucking standing on if it means I take you with me if I see you as my enemy. I’m on a quest for peace, anything that gets in the way of that or causes turmoil in my life can get the fuck out of my way or become ash, because I will go the fuck thru you. Affect my responsibilities in my life, I will accord the same respect you do to them, I don’t mind being a blunt instrum...

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