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I Open At The Close.

I open at the close.

Breathing fast and hard, he stared down at it. Now that he wanted time to move as slowly as possible, he seemed to have sped up, and understanding was coming so fast it seemed to have bypassed thought. This was the close. This was the moment.
He pressed the golden metal to his lips and whispered, “I am about to die.”


There is But one option and it has been put into place, let's see what you are going to do with it, but regardless of your actions and decisions, right now, Right here, this is exactly how the story is going to end, it's your choice on which terms it does, I've given you my terms and that's the only way it ends in a civil manner. it comes down to your decisions in the next ten days or so, My personal opinion is to give you No quarter and let nature run it's course and let you expose yourself. but we will see it's not about my well being or yours, Only about his and doing what's right for him, that's the only fucking reason this option, this offer is even being fucking extended, let's see what you do with it. it's in your hands now, I'm just seeing the damn thing thru for the only thing in my life that matter's to me, you should Know that, I don't back down and I don't back away, and when i say something I do what I mean and I do it. right now, in this chess game, every option is yours, play it out as you decide, just be prepared for the consequences of your actions, trust me I am both of your actions, and Mine. there is nothing else left to discuss and I am not in any way shape or form going to tolerate anything except exactly what I have outlines that the terms are, This is going to be how it ends whether or not you like it or not... the other option is clear, and I've got no problem descending Into hell with you if that's the option you choose. if we are gonna burn each, let's see whose fire Burns brightest because for that Child I'll endure flames you have never experienced, but i won't be the one that remains of the level of hell that you are bound for.. always remember that, we won't be meeting in Dante's Inferno, I have a different floor reserved for me, not the one that you are going to... but if it's time to burn, feel free, I fear nothing from you, I'll even bring you some gasoline.

Current Mood: Determined.

I’ve learned that waiting is the most difficult bit, and I want to get used to the feeling, knowing that you’re with me, even when you’re not by my side.

Wisdom is knowing when you are being patient, and when you are wasting time by waiting.

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