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Nil.



A lot of people are going to be left behind. My life isn't an easy one and people that aren't fucking contributing to my life can be left behind. I'm not in a great place mentally and it feels like it's going to be extended trip of the same old thing. If you don't know me at all, if I'm stuck in a fucking moment  I don't want to be in I will find a way to change the situation.

I've already lost one good freind to the fact that I am stuck in my current situation and I am not appreciated for it. What's a few more. I honestly wish that the light at the end of the tunnel wasn't a freight train. I know it's the least worst option for both of us but at the end of the day it's just trading one misery for another.

I need to figure out the next step for me, not for anyone else. This year has sucked balls and I'm just going around and around in fucking circles.

When I am underappractied by people or worse feeling downright fucking used as I have been this summer. I will walk away and never look back. It doesn't matter who you are. Period. There are things in my life that are more fucking important.

I can grow dark and withdraw from anyone. I've done it before. I can do it agian. No fucks given.

I am seriously reevaluating everything and everyone. No one is fucking safe.

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