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The Story Ain't Over.

 



I may love you, that may even be a constant that will never change. But i dont have a problem walking away for my own self respect, mental health and peace. I don't think our story will ever really end. But i refuse to play delusional fairy tale games as well.

I like that our moment isn't completely done but we are no longer tied to promises. I know you don't like being in control and you ain't ready that is understood. But i need more than a one day maybe.

There is love, there will always be love. That doesn't change. Our story hasn't ended it's just a diffrent set of rules. You surprised me. I was expecting the end game.  I am happy that you are in my life and that its open ended.

We will see what tommorow brings. We need to discuss the next option. But maybe its better that we take time and nor jump into anything.

You have been back in my life for six fucking years coming and going. Nothing ever gets resolved. We were only together for just under four. Not even if you count the breaks. I am done living in your illusion. At least at this point I know that I owe you nothing and everything. The story might not be done. But I also know I can walk away or move on forever with no guilt.  I tried for longer than most men would even consider. But it can be done. It might be better for both of us if it is but emotions still prevail, for some strange reason you still want me in your life...

But a man can't live on fucking bread crumbs.


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