I do things that make me happy and create memories. Things may change in mu life significantly in quick succession or I may be status quo for a long time... either way I plan to be happy and have adventures as long as I can. That's who I need to be. That's where I am happiest. In moments.
I like who I am. I like what my life is no. I don't need a partner to define who I am. Neither does she. We have separate lives but we are in each other's orbit. However, no one threatens her, much less my son. And one would do well to keep in mind that fact, as well as the fact that I constantly enter the pit to throw around and slam dance with guys that are half my age. Im still doing it because its one way to assist with emotions. Emotions that are currently bubbling over. And not in a positive way.
I will deal with both positive and negative emotions when I have to. The angry music scene helps me deal with that. When my world is a maelstrom going to a pit helps get some of those emotions out.
I throw around other large size men for fun. Some people need to remeber that. Just because I'm peaceful and actively seeking peace in my life doesnt mean im not still clearly a threat. And I dont care about what happens to me. I do however care about what happens to those I care about. And anyone thats a threat to them might need a reminder that I'm not an individual to be messed with.
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