It isn't apathy or laziness why I haven't been doing things lately. Its not even anger. Its just a reality that with everyone in my life its the same old bullshit and as long as I am shackled to the apron strings of multiple responsibilities its not going to get any better. Im trying to fix things for me and those around me and it just digs a bigger and bigger empty black hole. I am not sure how much longer I fucking tolerate it before I choose a third option. I'm sick of doing things and being under appreciated and having my efforts fall on fucking deaf ears. I hate struggling when I shouldn't be either. This will be a year of decisions or it will end in a moment that defines me for the next decade. I dont really care. I haven't in a while but im starting to realize status quo is toxic and it needs to change before I do. I don't do starvation diet for anyone and I hate walking on eggshells around someone i care about because of them being prone to outbursts. I...