Nikk's Blog of doom!!!

Nothing can be better on a saturday mornin than waking up and playing with thomas's and watching percy's chocolate crunch while eating eggo's. sometimes a few minutes of his precious time can make all the troublesome trucks and worries in my life go away, even right now he is playing with gordon and edward and their tenders and doesn't have a care in the world... and this is exactly how it should be. Current Mood: Extermely Happy Even with the utterly lost, for whom life and death are equally jests, there are matters of which no jest may be made

I am in such a great fucking mood today!!! little things can't bother me so much today.. things may not always go my way but once in a while they do and hopefully today will be one of those days that they do. plus i have little man tommorow so that's something to look forawrd to and i am enjoying the time off i have had this week after having hell week last week. Current Mood: happy.

Yeah, so much for anything positive, another apartment looked at another apartment down, i'm guessing it's probaly for the best seeing how it was a little too close for comfort being next door to work but it's still an annoying piss off. i'll have to see what the next step is. maybe this one on garfeild is an idea. who the fuck knows, getting depressed, it was easier finding a place when i was on welfare than when i'm working what the fuck is up with that? Current Mood: Depressed. They say misery loves company We could start a company and make misery Frustrated, Incorporated Well I know just what you need I might just have the thing I know what you'd pay to see

It's another wonderful day in paradise, seems to me the real concerns are about money and accountabilty for mistakes rather than the well being of the ones we should be concerenced about, i thought it was a rather interesting farce but thats appaerntly all that it was go figure. i have some serious frustrations that are coming to a head with the current state of things and i am seriously wondering if this where i want to be the rest of my life, let's see what the future holds, i am defiatley going to be using any other offers as leverage if i need to. Current Mood: Frustrated, can you tell? The key is to get to know people and trust them to be who they are. Instead, we trust people to be who we want them to be- and when they're not, we cry.

So anyways today went well and i think there will be more career and living choices in my future, i am very surprised at what i saw in Burlington and it may be an option in the near future if i commute to work here and have a second job out there, this freedom of not being tied down to an apartment when i have a good feeling about the job in the next city and i can commute to my current place of emnployment within 20 minutes has me thinking that my life may finally be on the right path, the only thing that would affect me should I move is that i am very aware i have a large support circle around me here and freinds and moving away from that agian might be diffcult we will see what the future holds... i left windsor, i left thorold, i can leave Hamilton agian, esp. if i'm trading up for burlington it may be home but i need to make the right choices for me and the little man. Current Mood: Contemplative.

I have never walked away pissed off from this job until today, what the fuck? if you don't want to pay for the fucking cab don't tell me to take one... 40$ dollars is 4 fucking hours night pay... i had sit all fucking night without sleep and i am making peanuts for the privilidge? you are goddamn right i am taking a day off i should have had fucking yesterday and today off for my son, this job is not worth the fucking seperation of me from him.... i'm trying to be nice and trying to be polite and bite my toungue and take out frustrations elsewhere but seriously... what the fuck? why the fuck do i have to ask for reimbursement for something i was fucking directed to do so you could have someone there becuase of your minor mistake and misunderstanding... this is twice that there's been a last minute phone call becuase of scheduling. things may change if there is a successful answer on the interview monday... i like the job and i want to see the best I can do accomplished ...

Ever get the feeling that you are being stretched too thin becuase of a lack of manpower? this is my current predicament... i am basically burning both ends of the candle due to my job and it's unhealthy and as a result i am neglecting responsibilites to my son, I was asked to do a 24 hour shift yesterday, i don't fucking think so... road to burnout here i come... It's going to be interesting if i have some barganing powers come monday after a new interview in burlington... i love my fucking job but seriously...overworked and underpaid?? i should be getting hazard pay for last nights shenagians...if i got a chance to sleep i wouldn't complain as much but what the fuck..... Current Mood: Exhausted, back to work at noon. Sleep is a symptom of caffeine deprivation.