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The Shield....


There are few things in this life i Give a damn about about but one of those things is the only reason I am still standing after two years of strife standing tall and Not about to walk away from Him, ever... I may hate is mother with every part of my being, but at the end of the day the only thing that matters is being that wall of sanity between me and her for that little boy, these games cannot continue forever, the longer this continues the easier it is for the cracks in the foundation start to crumble and the foundation of your lie starts to fall...I will always be here, standing Here for him, it breaks my fucking heart with everything in your life that has happened recently that i cannot be the one standing tall supporting him thru these dark times, but that has and always be his mother's choice and the events that she alone set into motion. I will stand tall and Always be here... that is right now what I can do.. I will never stop fighting.. I will never let myself be defeated by anything, outside forces or internal. the only thing that matter is you little man, everything else In my life is immaterial...

Current Mood: Determined.
Current Music: Tupac, Only God can Judge me
As for an authentic villain, the real thing, the absolute, the artist, one rarely meets him even once in a lifetime. The ordinary bad hat is always in part a decent fellow.

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