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The Game Has Changed...

How it always that Changes come at the exact same time In my life constantly, Decision's are being made and the toy game is changing and my role in.. but more Importantly the Chess game I am playing on this Mortal Coil for the sake of the little one's soul Is changing In the exact same Moment... Today was a diffrence Maker and something that will shake things up...I embrace this change and endorse it willingly and Immedatily as It is what should be happening but for a lot of the pawns and the black queen on the other side, it's going to be a shock to the system, The game Has changed.. we are already at Endgame.. but Now for the first time I feel that i truly I have the upper hand and the advantage, And i'm not about to falter when I am so close to the finish line.. even if I have to do it alone with the people i care most about in this world Distant, except for Him...it's only about Him.. everyone else... I will mend bridges later... I don't have a choice, choices I have made, My life, the strangulation of my living space by the fucking Cheap plastic crack.. that was/is an income... after the clusterfuck of the weekend i made a demand or I would walk away, at this point i need it out of my life but it is still an income.. but this year needs to be better handled, it's a buisness not something to invade my personal life.. and it's damaged that... but things are more important than toys, and today... that game changed.. that game I'm playing, Win or Lose, I see it to the end... And that's now a matter of days...The Game Has Changed ...

Current Mood: Determined.
Game on, old friend.

Just when you think you have all the answers, I change the questions.....

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