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The War XVIII: Just When You Think You Have All The Answers, I Change The Questions.....

I would give anything to be the fly on the wall when you get what you are going to be served with in the next week or so... Just because i have felt the fire of the heat from your hell doesn't mean you can't feel some of mine now... there's a reason i'm very patieint and I plan every chess move carefully...I'm not a creature of anger, fear or impulse... just like you with your slow knife that took years to twist it's way inside... i'm the same..3 years of your hell i have endured, with your every trick along the way to stall the game.... i'm not afraid of you, or the courts, or the system, I'm not the one who used a dark part to create an even darker future... the only diffrence is.. I only change the game when it is needed, I only upset the applecart and put you on the advantage when it is my advantage too.. otherwise it's much easier to let you doom yourself... you do a good job of it.. but I will always keep my trump cards close to the table and my vest... a wise man never shows his hand until the game is about to be done.. Espically when he's about to win... I'm sure i just threw a curveball and there will repercisions but this is a game.. and for that little boy's soul... I'll do anything I can to win.. it's both irony and vindication when I can use your own words agianst you, and possibly even you yourself... this is a chess game and i have always thought two moves ahead but certain recent events have be unexpected... even for me.. but then agian you should no me better... I'm a fucking mercenary, and I have nothing to lose.. I will do whatever it takes to win... whatever it takes to end the game..... we have been playing this game for far too long and it is only about your jealousy and selfish needs and your revenge for a slight i have never understood in ten long years what I did to you.... then agian this late in the game i don't need to know what it was.. Only what you've taken away from me.

Current Mood: Determined, Depressed
You don’t throw rocks at a man with a machine gun.

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