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Gone Daddy Gone


Now you're just being fucking obvious about it, is this the plan, to pull on the heartstrings until I say something, until the cold black parts of my heart melt and a renewed affection is in place for you? I spent years being in love with you and hurting, and Now it's your turn to play the lonely one? I'm sorry you can't turn back the clock and you can't change the way things are, you continue to play fucking mind games with me and I ignore them because realistically the light i had for you burnt out a long time ago.... you want what you can't have at this point because i've grown cold and i just don't care anymore there's a reality you need to face and it's a product of your own decisions and lifestyle, yes i'll always be around, but that's got nothing to do with you or your emotions anymore, only His.

Current Mood: Confused.
Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together

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