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Operation Mindcrime III

20 hour Fucking shift later and these kids are bouncing off the fucking wall, the fact that the manager of the organization is taking unscheduled time off for his own selfish reasons is really wearing thin, we are supposed to be a team but their is no I in team and I am starting to feel taken advantage of, this group home is becoming everything I have rallyed agianast in the past in terms of whats wrong with the system yet i am sitting here for the sake of a paycheck and choosing to stick around while my carrer ends up in the toilet, I have other options and it's getting to the point where I need to examine them , you can't keep kids locked up in a house with nothing to do and leave staff No money to take them out, this is How crisis Happens and this is how people get burnt out, I can't see a future here, and I can't feel a goddamn thing.

Current Mood: Exhausted, Pissed OFF
Because some men aren't looking for anything logical, like money. They can't be bought, bullied, reasoned or negotiated with. Some men just want to watch the world burn.

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