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I'm wondering what I'm doing at work when all it seems to be is sharing war stories about the other house and Indentifying too much with a client who is on such severe lockdown that it is beginning to recall old memories agian, at least at the other house their was an organization and a structure and a valid reason for the lack of freedoms given the kids ages but when you completely shackle someone based on what makes the organization run the easiet it's starting to play at the cobwebs of my mind, I mean it is very transparent that we are very much a for profit organization and that it's not about the kids it's about the dollar signs that come from warehosuing the kids, No wonder i want out to the point I am am crawling out as much as I can. I have stopped feeling or caring at the house and that scares me because it's not what I got into this feild for.

Current Mood: Apathy
Some people confuse acceptance with apathy, but there's all the difference in the world. Apathy fails to distinguish between what can and what cannot be helped; acceptance makes that distinction. Apathy paralyzes the will-to-action; acceptance frees it by relieving it of impossible burdens.

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