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Policies and Procedures


I am no longer comfortable at my job when I am asked to forge documents the morning before an inspection because no one else is botghering to do their jobs, it is very clear to me how much this organization is for profit and how little I am valued, obviously They ask me to forge dates and numbers because if anyone else does it they have deniablity, but i am seriously questioning my value to this company, I am thinking I am going to continue the slow death of my career until after christmas so i can have a nice holiday with my son, my family and freinds but I'm not even sure of that because it seems that getting some decent time off to spend holidays with my son may not be availible to me, the worst part it's not about politics holding anyone down, it's misminagement and obviously no one in charge is going to bother taking accountabilty for it, It really makes me wonder the level of care these kids are getting, wait, scratch that, I know the level of care these kids are getting, they are simply being put in a holding pattern until something better that actually meets theitr needs comes along.... that was pretty evident when I read the policy and procedures manual to brush up yesterdsay and their are so many supposed things wea re supposed to be making availible to these kids in our charter that are not being made availible to them, they might cost money, they might need additional manpower, they might need a lot of excuses for why they aint done.... As bad as I had it it's not the joke that this place is. When the Finicals are more important than a human life it's time to reexamine priotitys including my own, I don't think i can ethically stay the course much longer here, and having to forge legal documents is weighing heavily on my mind.

Current Mood: Frustrated.
Beliefs have the power to create and the power to destroy. Human beings have the awesome ability to take any experience of their lives and create a meaning that disempowers them or one that can literally save their lives.

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