Nikk's Blog of doom!!!

The Chess games continues but while you hide behind smoke and mirrors that are quickly fading away, i have the tactical advantage and years of planning to deal with the unaviodable outcome in the next few weeks, I have spent the past three years in purgatory and have no doubt that when my end time comes it will be more comfortable than the black Hell that you have inflicted upon my heart and his soul for the past three years... you cannot attempt to destroy a man and destroy what he lives for and his heart without repercussion's.. I am single minded, I know what the road ahead is... i am prepared for whatever happens, but i am completely ready for an epic battle on both fronts and I have no fear of losing... to Lose, to have finally lost means this body is dead and I am a corpse, as long as blood flows in my veins I will fight, even if i lose... but one, I am seven hundred Chess moves ahead and I know exactly where every move on the chess board is now, while you sit questioning yo...

An army of principles can penetrate where an army of soldiers cannot. It's almost done, things are becoming exactly what they are supposed to become and i know exactly what the next step is.. there are surprises along the way and forks in the road that are unpredictable but I know where I am going and I have no fucking expectations other than to watch you burn, this is not and has not ever been about me.. and it's time next week for that to be proven, this is about a lost little boy and a delusional mother who needs to face reality and not be spoiled by the system that has enabled her bullshit actions for so long.. i know I'm fighting a losing battle.. but i also know i have and will never give up.. not until I am fucking dead... that's the long and short of it, there's no anger, not anymore.. i just want to see this, thru to the eventual end.. i don't expect there to be a true end next week but for every ending there is beginning... i'm expecting to see ...

It's a week away, and make no mistake I expect to see you burn, I've brought the gasoline but you won't need that as you're own words will set you aflame.. it's pretty sad when people ask me what i think of my chances in this ongoing battle and at this point i Refer to my chances as you being the tip of a Bic lighter when lit.. you will go down in flames.. I will be standing in the fire agianst you always, for him... this is always going to be a nightmare and a battle but the closer the minute's click down, the closer the day comes the more confident I become.. I'm not sitting here anymore with anything to hide... and for three and a half years I have faced Hell and it's flames... It's your turn to do the same now... there is nothing you can do to me anymore, nor is there anything on this mortal plane or the next that I fear...it's not about me, it never has been... this isn't about my soul or my wants.... it's about His. I have willingly...

I'm a soldier. I'm made for war. Your kind simply... are not. This is the last chess move, a deseprate act by a person who cannot fathom reality..., Family court is a never ending prison but i finally have the upper hand and you know it and so you are doing crazy stunts and moves to block the reality of the fact that no matter how long it takes, whatever it costs, i will never stop fighting, I will never back down, Deep down in your demon black heart.. You know eventually.. I will win... You will have to Kill me to Stop me, and you are simply not strong enough for that, you don't understand it's not about winning or losing, but when one chess move is countered by an insane motion of course i can see the forthcoming results... it's not about the winning the battle.. it's about watching you lose the war... you can try to destroy a person so much that he even doubts himself, but then that person stands over the abyss and embraces it and becomes something else, so...

And all along the road All the bodies left behind May all have been good friends Just not good friends of mine The blood is in the water and you have made a tactical mistake... It's going to be a very interesting week and for you I have no fucking remorse... it's time to take my life back.. certain other things are slipping away slowly because i do not have fucking time for them but I have never had a taste for war, I do not fear it either.. it's time to let the games be done.. every day, every minute, every moment, ever fucking second... closer to the end... tick tock bitch.... that's all that's left.. is this battle.. the battle for his soul.. everything else in my life has and will be a necessary evil... and when it's all said and done, only one of us will be standing, no matter how long it takes... Current Mood: Angry. Current Mood: Bodies, Megadeth. I leave this as a declaration of intent, so no one will be confused. One: "Si vis pacem, para...

I would give anything to be the fly on the wall when you get what you are going to be served with in the next week or so... Just because i have felt the fire of the heat from your hell doesn't mean you can't feel some of mine now... there's a reason i'm very patieint and I plan every chess move carefully...I'm not a creature of anger, fear or impulse... just like you with your slow knife that took years to twist it's way inside... i'm the same..3 years of your hell i have endured, with your every trick along the way to stall the game.... i'm not afraid of you, or the courts, or the system, I'm not the one who used a dark part to create an even darker future... the only diffrence is.. I only change the game when it is needed, I only upset the applecart and put you on the advantage when it is my advantage too.. otherwise it's much easier to let you doom yourself... you do a good job of it.. but I will always keep my trump cards close to the table a...

Nothing like an unexpected game changer Dropped into your lap at the last second... I know how that bullshit feels, It's fucking satisfying to know that the exact same thing is finally happeneing to the other side of the equation and all of my enemies... and at this point i have no objection to stirring up the part.. I've always know that everyone else in the equation Fears me and those that support me.. but now that i have a game changed and it is because of the enemy's queen peice that the equation and the blind scales of justice have gravitated to my side? that's fucking statisfying...Just when you think you have all the answers, I change the questions. it's nice to be approaching both final battle's and knowing the angel's are on my side... well one Angel.. the one i am and always have been fighting for.. the only one that matters... Current Mood: Determined. The only way to win is to survive.