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Old Bones III

this time last year, there was no court, no uphill battle... this time last year we were planning on going to camp, hanging out at the pool and the world was our oyster.... I wonder the type of person and the mentality that wants to destroy something like that, last year he didn't want for anything, we went to tigercat games, the wwe and he even got a wii for Christmas at his mothers that i paid for... the cold black soul of the one who is causing this pain is something that need to be exposed for who she really is, and as long as i keep looking at the positives and be on my feet ready to fight for what is right, and for him.. i can do no wrong no matter the level of pain she has caused probably not only to me but also to him, she will get her day in court and be exposed.. it's coming very soon.... those that bring darkness into other's lives themselves end up with more darkness reflected upon into them.

Current Mood: Sad.
Current Music: Wasted Time, Skid Row.
It is better to ultimately succeed with the truth than to temporarily succeed with a lie.

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