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War VI

Sometimes you just need a sounding board that knows you and knows the system and your issues with it to be the voice of reason, even when angry having someone who is trusted and can take a step back and analyze the situation without the emotions and offer you an alternate perspective on things is helpful, yes This will be a long battle but sometimes it's better to make plans and be patient than to go all out with a frontal assault, I have a few ace cards in my deck, i don't think that sometimes people understand that... just because i am a private person and i don't handle my relationships with people well doesn't mean I don't have an inner circle that i trust with my life and that I can always call upon in times of need, the sad fact being their are way too many times in this life i have to depend on them, but knowing they are there is always times i can call on them is a relief to the horrible burdens in my life.

Current Mood: Determined.
There is no glory in battle worth the blood it costs.

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