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War III

Tired of having patience for these motherfuckers, there is nothing there and it's fucking time for me to start pushing back... I'm sick of her and her nonsense to attempt to destroy my life..I need to go back to work and I need to have him here right beside me, This fucking shit is simply turning every anger button on and i brood and seethe and wait... Sitting around all week waiting for a fucking phone call that isn't coming, go figure, this is how you battle the system filled with lies and ignorance, because that's the game they are playing with you... Being patient and truthful get's you nowhere except deeper within yourself in your own personal hell, anger builds and feeds, I Almost want to go down there and kick a fucking door in... but no matter how dark the places i go become and how angry I get, or how much i fucking end up suffering, I'm better than that... I'm better than her.

Current Mood: Anger.
Current Music: Eminem - Space Bound
Men are at war with each other because each man is at war with himself.

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