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War Machine II

Tomorrow is going to be a game changer, and things better start changing as things have gone on for far too long and it's getting time for me to retake some control from these people and my ex. I am not gonna be dictated to and have my relationship with my child destroyed and have my career torn to shreds.. Tomorrow i get some action happening and people need to get off their high and mighty horses and come back down to the ground.. I am sick of the sleepless nights and the fact that i literally just forced myself to starve for a month because everything I hold dear was taken away from me in a millisecond.. no warning... It's time for me to go back to normal.. if that means i have to stand up and fight.. I'll stand up and fight....answers are required and more than that, theirs only one persons interests at stake here...and unlike the people that are looking out for hers and only hers... It's not mine or hers...it never has been about either of us, she doesn't feel that way tho.

Current Mood: Determined.
I'm a soldier. I'm made for war. Your kind simply... are not.

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