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War VII: Reach.

This is only the beginning of a war that i will likely be fighting a losing and an uphill battle and i will probably end up with losing a lot more than i want to, then again, I'm not afraid of losing a little skin or blood and/or suffering.. she's already taken my job and my son away, she's already won, when a man has nothing left to lose what's left to take away, I'm not the one destroying everything here, I'm just trying to defend myself and deal with this situation of course it's time for me to make some fucking moves before i lose my fucking sanity and things go off the track for good, it shouldn't take this long and maybe if i start making moves it will not take so long for these so called professionals and their authority to stall as they have been doing, I don't think they like the magic word Lawyer and being pulled into court will make them like me even less but it may get things moving, this is a long battle and only phase one of the war... win or lose, as long as I stay true to myself I will be the better person in the long wrong, I haven't done anything wrong and i resent being made to feel and treated like a criminal when I am not one, but then again when you take everything from me i might as well be one... it would be so easy to go back to Toronto and fade away and easier still to go to Windsor and forget about everything, but that's not me, why choose the easy road.. when obviously it's so much easier for me to go the hard way... and lose.

Current Mood: Angry,Depressed.
Take the first step, and your mind will mobilize all its forces to your aid. But the first essential is that you begin. Once the battle is startled, all that is within and without you will come to your assistance.

It's better to burn out than fade away

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