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Old Bones...

I don't know what it is but i am starting to feel very old and disconnected with the world, every day once agian seems like I am disconnected from what's going on around me and instead of moving, i fall into familiar habits and time is standing still, i guess having a rumble in my stomach of anger is a good thing but to constantly have the fire stoked by outside sources bother's me.. i should have the fire in my belly and i never should have let myself become complacent but i shouldn't have these terrible things I'm currently experiencing be the catalyst for the strength to make change.. I never thought it would be this easy to let myself be destroyed either, but it's done.. and even tho the wheels of time slowly turn for me, waiting, waiting, waiting on other people to rightly or wrongly do their fucking jobs.... it's time for action, it's time for a return of the person i used to be... I don't back down from anyone, least of all her. at the end of the day she'll be exposed and that's the deal... so what i have to fight agian, i let my guard down that was the only reason she ever thought she could pull this off, but let's see what happens in the next few months, let's play games....I'll Win.

Current Mood: Determined.
I am ready to meet my Maker. Whether my Maker is prepared for the ordeal of meeting me is another matter.

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