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The Speed Of Pain.

I shouldn't be fucking sitting here hurting as much as I am, my heart and soul lay exposed and destroyed and everything that was fucking good about me is slowly dying, It won't die alone, when I am succumbing to the more evil parts of my nature, the anger and the voilence I will fucking channel them into a white hot laser of pain, if you are going to cause this kind of pain to me, I will do the same to you, and i promise you it will never ever fucking stop....I will destroy your life as you have destroyed mine... It fucking hurts so bad to even think about him and not have him hear with me, all because of your lies.. and the fact that you have coached him to say something that never happened, with or without him at my side He is my entire life and the only thing that matters.. that won't ever change... not because of your jealousy, your need for control or your lies.. I'm his father I am never going anywhere, no matter the cost and no matter how much it fucking hurts.

Current Mood: Sad.
Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live.

But just remember when you think you're free
The crack inside your fucking heart is me

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