I am taking a chance because nothing is more important and there is nothing to fucking lose. I'd rather stand on my own two feet and say i tried than sit around around waiting for things to change on her timeline. I may love them both but I have been in the shadows of his life for far too long. I will always try and be there for Both of them, even when i'm not wanted. this is a choice of not walking away in a moment i can be anyone and go anywhere. I'm staying right where I am and fighting for the things that are mine. i hope you understand that, I'll always be here. I'm Not going anywhere.
Shallow men believe in luck or in circumstance. Strong men believe in cause and effect.
I want you in my life. Don't ever fucking confuse that for needing you in my life. Those two things are mutually exclusive to each other. I'm fine with my life and it's not my freind's and my social life that I'm jealous of. We both made our choices. My life has always been an insane carnival. You were merely an extended chapter. But if you think I'm going to sit at home being sad and depressed and shutting down because your not in my life. Your delusional. Then agian we already know this. If my life is going to be a sad comedy then I'll make it a metal massacre. I'm not sitting around waiting for anyone. The least of all you. I sacrificed enough time on the altar of what might have been. I'm just enjoying the time that we have left. This way if it go out, it's on my own terms. I always told you that my funeral pyre will be a blaze of glory.. I just never told you when. Now I'm gonna live and have adventures. Remain jealous. You know how ...
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