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A Demon's Fate


I have options to leave Hamilton and just as easily I can just slip away and fucking disappear from this world, I have done so this summer... I could very easily be just a forgotten memory When I choose to, it would be very easy to just fade to nothingness, But i don't know how to do that... I have to stand up and fight, I have to win, I can take the physical and emotional pain.. I have spent the majority of my life as the nomad, never knowing where i was going, but always headed in some unknown direction, at least the one thing i had then that i don't have now is a goal a clear path to cut down everyone in my path that got in my way.... now I have destroy everything I have ever loved to have the most important part of my soul back, but if that is the cost and the price that I have to pay, so be it.. I have never backed away from my destiny whatever It may be.. I would rather pour the gasoline and watch my world burn if it would save my loved ones from harm, but it's time to deal with the one that must burn.... I will emerge victorious, On the wing of a burning phoenix that has removed all emotion for you, stripped from me like everything i will strip from you.... it's better to have known that you are responsible for this since day one, than constantly doubting myself.... their is no forgiveness, No quarter will be given, If i have to take myself and the system down with you I will do it.... But i do it for one singular cause, One reason.... and when i'm done.. you'll never be able to bring yourself back to a point where it can ever happen again... and if I lose... I can just fade away, but i don't know or have the willpower to lose.. all I've ever done in this lifetime is fight.... and never back down... I'm not about to change that now. You should have known better.

Current Mood: Angry.
Current Music:Within Temptation - Shot In The Dark
Once hope is gone...dying is just a formality.

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