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Piece of Mind III

It should be this Simple. it should be Me and my son and the doggies on vacation right now and/or living here with my parents. It should be nothing to this world to just hang out and do nothing and wait for the world to pass me by with some simple type of job and simple place is this world and existence, that's not something i could ever settle for but it is something i wish I could have...I wish I was that person that settled for a normal life and normal menial job, I had higher expectations for myself and for the person I choose to be with, If course some people are bound and determined to create an illusion of history repeating itself, if for nothing else to eliminate me from the equation, but that will never happen.If nothing else with this new calmness in my head I know i can take on the world and whatever i throws at me, i know that I have options and I know that I can know peace, I know that should i decide to leave agian, I can go anywhere, anyplace and find myself a simpler place and a simpler frame of mind.... Kinda of like the man I used to be...

Current Mood: Peaceful.
Negative feelings and negative thoughts keep peace of mind away.

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