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Fear Me....

I set around every day mindlessly waiting on the next step and wondering exactly when it's going to come... my patience levels are becoming very low.. it's understandable that If i was a lesser man i would not have this much patience and their are days I wonder if the easy solve is just kicking a door in and creating an Incident, that would at least focus the attention on the problem at hand instead of all this professional apathy...i can sit in jail, it's not a problem, i'd never plead guilty because i'm innocent.... but i would sit for as long as I had to like a spinning top, just because I have No fear... I know what the truth is and where I stand... it's sad that the power of fear is so strong within you, you thought it appropriate to eliminate me from his life.. but if you knew anything about me, you would know i go down fighting.. and I will not abandon my loved ones, my goals or my ideals... No matter the fucking cost personally.

Current Mood: Angry.
Life's unfairness is not irrevocable; we can help balance the scales for others, if not always for ourselves.

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