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Return To Big Nothing...II

Nothing Ever changes In this world, and everything Is fucking Predictable... Time to go Home and pretend I don't exist again, I swear to fucking god I should have stayed in Windsor.. I was happier there... there are options and one day very fucking soon I may take myself up on some of those fucking options and walk the fuck away...the patience levels are low almost all of the time now.. who the fuck was I kidding when i thought i could find fucking peace.. the reality is the only real peace i will have is at the end.. when i MAKE DECISIONS FOR ME... not for anyone else.. sick of being a prisoner in my own life and I'm sicker still of answering and being for judged for shit i haven't even done... the only good thing about going back to Hamilton tommorow is I can start moving forward and make some fucking changes in my life... It's time to be on the fucking offensive, it's time to do what needs to be done...

Current Mood: Angry.
Remember my face! It's the last thing you're ever going to see ... and I want you to carry the memory of it straight to HELL!

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