I am a warrior, I would rather Not be one But that is my lot in life, everything in one way or another since childhood has been a battle, even in the happier times their was always something to fight something to rail against... this is not a life I want for my child... He does not have to suffer the never ending battle that my life has became and/or has always been...She should know better... I should not be sitting around every waking day waiting for the day that the battle will end.... that i can close this war journal and go to my resting place...but I know that place will not be welcoming even tho it will be a long and justily deserved Hell that I go into... at the seventh level reserved for the Violent and angry, it still beats the layer reserved for the betrayers and the treasonous.. I know exactly who I am, I am a Warrior, I have existed at the void for so long, Staring a hell's gate... it has stared back into me as well, it is a part of me. I am angry, I am violent about what i believe in.... the fires of hell within me are internalized.... it is what drives me... without anger there is nothing left any more.... I may show a calm exterior because I have to but sometimes i wonder if letting go, letting the Emotion take control would be a better solution, This calmness and the fact i have had to bury the fire so far down below for so many years and be a normal person when it is a fact that it has always been there, just under the skin simmering... I was a lot angrier when you knew me... why did I change why Did i attempt to please everyone to get a little ahead.. when i ascend into hell, there will only be two choices but it's on this earth that I fight the Unholiest of wars.... a battle that Must be won....I will endure.
Current Mood: Angry.
Current Music: Iron Maiden, The Longest Day
They laugh at the law. The rich ones who buy it and twist it to their whims. The other ones, who have nothing to lose, who don't care about themselves, or other people. All the ones who think they're above the law, or outside it, or beyond it. They know all the law is good for is to keep good people in line. And they all laugh. They laugh at the law. But they don't laugh at me.
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