My life is always going to be half filled with darkness, I understand that, but sometimes it seems like the only think currently in my life is the fuckin darkness and I'm not just staring into the Void and having it whisper back, but I am embracing it wholeheartedly and letting it embrace me.. sometimes i think the person i was 20 years ago was far more equipped for this life than me.. when i lost my edge and mellowed i became someone who i never should have been.. i could sit for days inside of my rage against the world doing nothing... now all i do for day is sit and do nothing... I need to figure out how to move forward.. it's time to get less than comfortable, it's time to be hungry and cold and against the world again, I do not fucking trust anyone again.. that's the way things need to be at this point.... this last few weeks have been a reminder of the futility of letting anyone inside the sanctum i call what's left of my fragile heart and soul... Only a privileged few remain and they are the only ones that remain. it's time to become cold and hard, Like Ice.... If i'm going to be treated like a criminal, I might as well act like one.... Against the world.
Current Mood: Angry.
There are two things that one must get used to or one will find life unendurable: the damages of time and injustices of men.
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