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Escalation....

...Go figure you bring a knife to a gun fight shots are going to be fired by both partys, so anyways, I'm just about done with hamilton and all this fucking bullshit...ON my mother's fucking birthday I end up out in the fucking cold because some dumb bitch thinks she can play with the laws and the rules? I hate being boxed in by my income and there is someone else that I fucking blame for that... but i did nothing wrong here.. I paid rent on time, I helped out and I tried to keep my shit together to not be a nuisance, you would think someone would appriacate the fact that I have an income and can help out once in a while.. but no jealousy and excesive demands on my space and my time... asking me for money when i'm delibratley given you the silent treatment after you've assualted me? there is only one woman in this or any lifetime i was or am willing to absorb that kind of punishment from, and newsflash lady, She Ain't you, I got my own battles to fight there, but the fucking games you are playing? i've already scorched my earth.... I've got nothing to lose... but you're fucking life.. you're fucking deal? you are so fucking done... you can't steal from innocent people and get away with it. i never did anything wrong... but i do have a match.... And i know exactly what Escalation is... and that's exactly what i got last night... a big ball of Escalation.... time for me to respond in kind... But I'm smarter than the average bear... i got you figured out, you play games and you always have, I'm done playing... your move. i've already laid out my cards....

Current Mood: Angry, Pissed off.
He pulls a knife, you pull a gun. He sends one of yours to the hospital, you send one of his to the morgue. That's the Chicago way!

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