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Regeneration II: The War


I have been distracted for far too long waiting for my life to change while having someone people in my life that never should have been part of my life as anything more than the fringe edges or skeleton's of a dark and shattered past, it\s time to focus on me and the people that actually have my motherfucking back. it's time to be cold and time to be the person that Stands apart... as I always have. there's is nothing in this world i want except for one goal, a vital part of my soul has been torn away from me, and as much as i try and ignore it... it is something that Informs my every waking moment... any other battle is meaningless... there is only one that matters, it's about me and him, and having a safe place for him to come home to and being able to fucking provide for that... not dealing with emotional vampire sycophants that have of recent days infested my life.. all i need is a room with a view, i have survived on less.. i am always going to be the man I am, I am always going to be the man who regrets, but never the man that forgets... I am a warrior and that Is my place in the world, If i have to fight I will fight, Even as i tire of it...there is so much at stake for me.. but for far too long i have been distracted by other's and immaterial things... i do not need to have people who i don't need in my life using me.. and i refuse to let their darkness pervade my life any longer.. i have my own darkness and my own dark demons feeding upon my soul, I don't need anyone else's. I am becoming a darker person and closing myself from people i see no further use for... it's time for me to be exactly who i should have been all along, darker, colder.. i have to much to protect to bother being distracted by meaningless issues that do not make sense, i need to be about me, for me.. no on else.. i remeber who is on my side and who is not... and that's who i need to stand with... not anyone else.

Current Mood: Less Distracted.
The true soldier fights not because he hates what is in front of him, but because he loves what is behind him.

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