I am Sick of sitting around Just waiting for my life to change, I sit patiently waiting for things to change and then i have had people take advantage of my situation to exploit me... i've done nothing fucking wrong and i feel so much more like a prisoner in my own life...i should let the darkness consume me and the anger and the rage overtake.... If I was a lesser man it would have happened already but you know what i've always tried to be the person that I am and always will be, but i can look back on the past and realize so many things about myself and my emotions and realize their's really no reason for me to have fucking kept them in check.... every-time i do it's another betrayal another stab in the fucking back.... at least the reality is i am at a fucking point in my life where i am about to close down and only have the important people in my life surrounding me, everyone else can fuck off...care and respect for those that have not earned it are futile emotions... i know i've made mistakes in my life and I gladly own up to them but when i have had emotional vampires surrounding me for so long it's time to cut them off.. i don't need greedy people in my life or the kind of people who only need me when they need something.... they want to see the real fucking me... here I am, here you are not.. that's the way things are going to be from now on..
Current Mood: Angry.
Current Music: Creeping Death, Metallica
There are times in everyone's life when something constructive is born out of adversity... when things seem so bad that you've got to grab your fate by the shoulders and shake it.
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