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Nightmare....

Certain people are in the process of being exorcised from my life but i defintly not playing this fucking game anymore.. 20 fucking years i have been on my own and i have never had the issues i have had in the last year.. trapped in a bad situation because of the system and then when i start making plans to leave said situation it falls on deaf ears until someone escalates it to a dangerous amount.. but i did see it coming... certain people set off alarm bells and i allow them to be in my life, yet when I'm in crisis? where the fuck are they? yeah, some of these real good freinds of mine that are so fucking solid when they need something are around right Now? No you motherfucker's ain't.. so next time you need me? i will be what I am right now to you. a Ghost... I'm Bones the Grim Reaper.... it's time to cut all the cancers in my life.. what the fuck am I doing staying in Hamilton, there is only one thing keeping me here.. I could be in Windsor with my true friends that have my back... the thought has been in the back of my mind... just as the idea that saying Fuck this and going to Vancouver... which should have been the original plan many, many , moons ago... all Hamilton has ever brought to me is pain... i might as well tell people i was Born in Windsor or Detriot, that's where my motherfucking soul is.. i came back here and have been reduced to an empty shell.. this last year and last week has been a nightmare.. I've done nothing wrong and have been treated like a criminal because of it... here's a fucking newsflash!!! I am a fuckin Criminal, Time I acted like one.

Current Mood: Sad, Angry, Depressed.
Current Mood: Eminem, Survival
Adversity is like a strong wind. It tears away from us all but the things that cannot be torn, so that we see ourselves as we really are.

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