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The Punisher: Welcome Back, Frank

Pretty fucking obvious by the title that I'm still fucking pissed off, I'm sick of feeling like a prisoner in my own life, Can't people get the fucking hint when i want to be left alone? i don't like to be dictated to about my possessions and what i own and what I choose to fucking own..Once again the last time i gave a damn enough to give up everything was a very long time ago... and both fucking times i was walking away from everything, I have worked hard and earned everything that belongs to me.. there is a reason i might as well go fucking digital and getting new tattoos and a new leather jacket or two.. sick of my money being drained by outside interests and me not seeing the values of. I have people that are important to me and sometimes i don't need to be brought down by other's that may not have my interests at heart.. it's time to start considering the next step, I've never had a problem fighting wars, I've never had a problem walking away, you think emotional connection mean anything to me? I need peace in my own mind and stability... right fucking now I'm not feeling either.. I can just go Home back into Hell and deal with she who shall not be named if I want to deal with some of this nonsense, And another thing.. I can only go so far in my own private war without hitting bricks.. you don't understand the entire dynamic... this is a battle for my fucking freedom and for my son's soul... if you don't know the complexities of the entire situation stay the fuck out.. i don't need you're fucking opinion. I've had enough of certian people's fucking opinion's and what they want me to do with my life.. I'm 37 fucking years dead, I make decisions based on me and the only goddamn thing that's important to be.. My back was against a wall a year ago today and I'm feeling the same fucking way again today... only difference is these days i have some fucking options.., as i said before it's time to be the warrior i am and start showing some fucking teeth, it's been long enough that i have the anger back, there is no point in sitting around and not unleashing the rage... the person I am is the person I've always been But i need to be the man i was in college and University.. when it mattered that i had the anger... not the fucking father that just wants to work with the system and society so that things will be better for me and my future generation. what the fuck did that ever get me... I Stand Apart. I always have.

Current Mood: Depressed, Angry.
Current Music: Eminem,Asshole (feat. Skylar Grey)
One mind, any weapon.

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