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Days of Future Present II

Sometimes Positive things can come from bad situations, at this point i am walking away from a bad situation scott free without any major issues to my personal life and going into a situation where I have a 2 bedroom apartment and No further issues with boundries and interpersonal bullshit.. My life is once agian my own and i can do whatever the fuck i want with it.. and find myself some real life goals and deal with the real issues over head rather than being associated with some old crone who wants me at her beck and call.. i have also stood apart from people as an independent person, save one little person I don't need anyone In my life.. and for these other people who have stood in my way when i've tried to accomplish something, welll it's real easy to seperate the wheat from the chaff... I know who stands beside me in my darkest of hours and who has sat there and stood aside I will decide when things are said and done who will still be at my side.. and I do know who is important to me and who i appreicate... everyone else.. they can go fuck themselves, I'd rather be challegended by loved ones than abused by so called false freinds... their is only so much bullshit i can take in this life from anyone and i don't need to deal with people that are vampires upon my soul....

Current Mood: Angry, Determined, Hopeful.
Rational behavior ... depends upon a ceaseless flow of data from the environment. It depends upon the power of the individual to predict, with at least a fair success, the outcome of his own actions. To do this, he must be able to predict how the environment will respond to his acts. Sanity, itself, thus hinges on man's ability to predict his immediate, personal future on the basis of information fed him by the environment.

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