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Escalation IV....Path Of Destruction.

I am losing my Mind, and starting to make plans to say it all and stop pretending like I fucking care about anything in this world... I don't care and the longer i sit there and get fucking abused by the fucking world it makes me wonder if I still have a place in it... There is no Point to having any sort of material ownership because people are fucking jealous and will use any opportunity to steal everything for you, I worked my ass off the last few years to get and DO stuff that mother fucking needed to be done.. And for what... to be used and discarded at the earliest fucking opportunity...I'm sick of the fucking storm and worse than that I'm sick of watching my life and watching shattered pieces of it lie at my feet bleeding.... I can see that it would be so much easier to fucking walk away than to deal with any of that shit.. I can't feel anything but fucking Numb right now... Fucking bitch A damages my life and takers everything away.. and then this other bitch destroys what's left? i wasn't even fucking dating her... she was just someone i rented from. Now i've lost everything.... that's ok I've been thru this path of fucking destruction before... and I don't mind.. because i know how to keep my mouth shut and brood and be angry... I know what the next step is.... patience.. I'm just running out of it.

Current Mood: Angry, Depressed, Sad.
Current Music: My Friend of Misery, Metallica.
Despair is anger with no place to go.

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