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He's Back (The Man Behind The Mask) II

I am Home, this place is where i am most comfortable and there are things I would change if it was possible... I am happiest here, and it may have taken a little while to get back into the groove but given a choice this would have been the Final Destination, But that wasn't how it has played out so I merely deal with what has, I am happiest when i have the wind at my hair and a guitar on my back and I'm hanging out downtown on Oulette with the wild and crazy street matching my own personality and just playing guitar and being happy with myself, It was here i came of age, here where the walls i had surrounding myself came down, here where i made peace with myself, I blurred the lines between Bones and Nick here and became a better person because of it, the good thing about being here is I am myself again and I am reminded of Who and what I am without any of the baggage that comes from The four walls and a funeral of my lives in Hamilton and Niagara, when I am here I am truly me, I stand alone on my own merits, No one judges who i am and where I've been.... I don't have to deal with negative nonsense and certain expectations here...here it's not about the story it's about who I am who I have proved myself to be.. to be real to myself and others, i don't hide anything about myself but up here... I am skin and Bones...I am Stripped bare...People know exactly who i am. I don't have to pretend to be something I'm not and don't have to deal with the fact that my world is Crumbling because I'm not surrounded by it every day and yet I have to wake up with the passion and strength to fight every single fucking day... here i can just play my guitar and be me.. coming here was a good decision. I will Miss it when i return and It will take some careful soul searching over the next few months to decide where my path will ultimately Lead.

Current Mood: Happy.

And when man faces destiny, destiny ends and man comes into his own.

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