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He's Back (The Man Behind The Mask)

it is nice to be surrounded by old Friends and be somewhere in my life that i am comfortable, there is no past here other than that good memories and there is nothing here that ties me to anything than the person that i am.... obviously one of these days i could put in some serious consideration to moving back, and i may just look for work while I'm up here... i think that at the end of the day it's about whats going to be right for me and my boy... and it isn't fair everything that has has happened, when i look back i see happy memories and i see someone 10 years this time who had just graduated college and was looking forward to university.... i looked backward for only one thing and that person should have been left behind the day i exited Welland.... i had no reason to look back but still I did... now i don't look behind, the person I am the, coming of age, what defines me... is all from Windsor... This is Home.

Current Mood: Happy, Hungover.
A demon can get into real trouble, doing the right thing.

A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out.


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