There are things here I want to do, and things Here that I need to do.. the first challenge is the upcoming battle obviously but there are things i have wanted to do and at one point were my ultimate goal, obviously things did not go as planned and being here, truly for the first time in years i have many doubts about the choices i have made in my life, that being said i did the thing that was right at the time, has it ended up the way i wanted to? not at fucking all, but it has been an experience, and i am better for having had such experience, there are places and things i can go do here and maybe at this point it is time to examine those options or at least use them as fodder for the upcoming court battle, I've always been able to walk away from my past and who i was, but this place even being somewhere i used to live is somehow always going to be tied to my present, even if it's just to salvage my career i may have to make a permanent return, of course there is the fact that I am comfortable in my own skin here... and that's not something i have elsewhere anymore.. here is where i grew roots, here is wear i made a home for myself as adult.... there is nothing i want more than to return.... except one thing... AND THAT ONE THING... TRUMPS EVERYTHING ELSE.... but there are still things in Windsor that I need to accomplish... i have never set a goal without accomplishing it except for here.. and it was not my hand that stalled that path.
Current Mood: Bored.
In hell there is no other punishment than to begin over and over again the tasks left unfinished in your lifetime.
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