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This Was MY Life VII

I don't want to go back home... i dont want to go back to my former or current life and deal with my repsonsibilties and shit anymore.. i could just as easily stay here and vanish into legend, i met someone amazing tonight who is my equal on such a cerebal level and there's nothing sbout it that isnt more than freindshipo which is awesome.. but she is very much like me.. and the fact that i have spent the month with some of my oldest freinds and most loyal freinds is awesome.... there aren't many other places that i can feel as comfortable or as home as windsor and some decisions will be seriously made in the near future to facilitate the next step in my evolotuion because i am sick of being stagnant and miserable... if i'm going to be someone else and start anew i'll do it where i have roots and where i am most comfortable....

Current Mood: Awesome.
And no matter what they did to build this city back up again -- for the rest of time -- it would be like nobody even knew we was ever here

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