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This Was My Life II

I am comfortable here and I am Happy, but I am aware that my time here is limited and that responsibilities call me elsewhere when my vacation is done, but I am back in Windsor for a reason and I have a game plan for the end of the year which will affect things in more than one way and will no longer be me counting the days and looking at the walls of my apartment... Change needs to happen, If i had known what the world would look like today certain sacrifices would have been made differently... it's sad that my life has turned into an episode of Maury, and how different had my life been If it had been you're not the Father... But i am the father and every decision and action in my life then and now reflects that, that being said there is no fucking reason why i can't accomplish what i set out to do in the first place and get my life back together, If i am only going to be a weekend dad why don't I go back to school, regardless of anything she can try she can never take away from my mind, My determination, and my intellect.

Current Mood: Determined.

Life is like a game of cards. The hand you are dealt is determinism; the way you play it is free will.


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