I am Comfortable here, this place has always been more home and the only place I ever put down any real roots... my friends are here and non judgmental and I can do what I want and need to do out here without having to answer to anyone other than the voices in my own head.. I should never have left, when i lived here i was an individual and I did what i wanted to, not any preconceived notion of what path i should follow... years ago i changed that to be the role that is the most important but at this stage in the game if i can go back to what i was years ago it's worth consideration, it's not going to be an overnight decision but I am thinking that rather than standing still in Hamilton I can be moving forward here, University is something she can never take away from me... and if i go back and take a course and try and get into the third year of the program i actually want to be in after getting that course, she can't take that away either.. I am seriously considered a possible return full time to Windsor once everything get's sorted, i can see a future here... In Hamilton, not so much... one it's about being where I want to be.. but two... if everything is going to be stripped away from me constantly anyways... why not do it somewhere without a past, somewhere i belong... here I exsist, Just me.. no history... No judgements... I have proved the man I am here on my own merits... their is no bullshit attached to muddy the waters and drag me down.. and that's the way it always should have been.
Current Mood: Determined.
The last I heard from my destiny, it wanted me to make a legal U-Turn at my next opportunity.
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