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This Was My Life III

I have to wonder what the next step is when someone that I trust in the Uwindsor faculty is echoing an idea about going out to Vancouver that i have had in my head for months, it would be very easy to leave here with no ties and be the nomad agian, Vancouver would make things easier... all but one thing that i will not fucking sacrifice, I do not need to play that round of dice until I have exhausted all options here, but it is interesting to see that the idea is coming from one of my most trusted advisers here at the university, I need to keep playing the wild card in the hand I have been dealt and dealing with whatever needs to be and can be accomplished here, I can't give up hope or give up on the real world and move on before everything i can do, is done... Leaving here was a mistake, I'm comfortable in Windsor and it may have cost me my academic career, but like all good things born of fire... it can be resurrected.

Current Mood: Determined.
If fate means you to lose, give him a good fight anyhow.

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