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Race Day!!!!

I do epic things and I am happy. I have good freinds and I need for nothing in this life. I am having an absolute blast with two of my best freinds in the entire world and I hope that I can do this many more times. I live each day like it’s my last like it’s the last for a reason.  But sometimes it just feels good to be able to do so. The fact this was always my plan to end the visit with, makes me happy I was able to be the one to plan and pay for it. I am sad my friend is going home tommorow and that the future in uncertain. There will be another time for moments but it might take a while. That makes me sad. Maybe next summer in Great Britain….
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Limelight.

I am legendary and I do the impossible things. I am always going to go to all the things until I’m in the ground. I love my friend’s and I love showing them how epic life can be in my world. It’s not always great shakes but it can be. A moment can change everything. And often does. 

Gentleman Ghost.

I am an afterthought in a lot of peoples lives. But I know who I am close to and who k matters. My personality, my ethics and my morals are things that are unchanging. I’m gonna be a gentleman with whoever I’m hanging out with.  And I’m going to protect those that I love. And make sure they get home safe.  I do epic shit and I hang out with epic people. I am legendary. I have things to deal with and drama. It doesn’t matter. I’m having fun and I’m just letting the world flow. I’m having fun and I’m not letting things be any more complicated than I need to. I’m happy. And I’m happy being a good person and a gentleman. 

Back to the Beginning.

I definitely have con fatigue. It’s time to be done for a while. It’s ended at the place it began. That’s important to me.is soon accomplish and someone I care about for one of his holy grails. Time to forget about all this for a while and just have fun and be happy with my freind.  Need to focus on the things in my life that are important and have value to me and these fake fucking plastic people don’t. It’s time to separate from all that.  Walking away from toxic people is easy but I don’t want to lose the good people in my life by alienating them. This shit affects my moods. Time for it to be done.  I have epic adventures and friends from all over internationally. I need to focus on them and my priorities. This is another chapter of my life closed. Period.  Im gonna just enjoy the rest of the trip with one of my oldest friend’s and have fun. 

The Return.

It’s been a long time coming for this return to the place everything started with the con stuff. And the fact I am doing it with my best international friend that I’ve known over 20 years makes today so much sweeter.  It may be dumbledores last dance. It might not be. But to leave it ten years ago and come back a legend? Yeah. This is the way to go out.  No more anger about the costume, no more sadness or stress, no more con politics . Just one more day where I can be me. Where I can have fun being me. That’s it. That’s all I need to be. No more pretending that I work well with others. I don’t. But I’m good with this cosplay all on my own. It’s fun, people like it. And if it’s time to be done I left it the same as I came into it. On my own terms. This is where it began, it’s fitting that this is where it ends.  Im happy and today will be a good day once we get there.  Current Mood: Happy.  Current Music: bottom feeder, parkway drive.

The Trees.

  I am really bothered by someone hurting my tree. I’m not sure the next step but that’s a living thing. I know that there is no healing when our things are still affected negatively by people. I’m not sure what the next step is but I know this is part and parcel of the entire thing and that we can’t heal when people hurt the things we care about.  I don’t have much but I do have a legacy to protect and there is a place where my son needs to feel safe, and I don’t think it will ever be that house agian. But once it was home, there are good memories there. There was love.  Part of that is the peace that was our tree. I’m sick of people damaging the things I love.  The world needs to be better and less selfish. I need peace in mine and her lives. Even if we are separate in our lives. She needs the peace and quiet I have in my life. Even more than I do.  And only one of us has it. 

Bela Lugosi’s Dead.

The bats have left the bell tower.  And another chapter in my life ends. One with more negatives than positives. Same reasons as the last time I was associated with anything other than myself. At least the last time I left something like this I was walking away from money. This time, I am walking away from exactly fucking nothing of value. All it ever was, it was an albatross around my neck. It started bad and it ended quietly. With the same quiet knives of jealousy in my back that had always been there. At least when I’m an asshole I’ll come at you directly with a fucking rhinoceros in a China shop attitude. I don’t hide behind others and I stand behind the words I say. I don’t apologize because it’s a sign of weakness. And I don’t care, because I have bigger things in my life and my world than this. I walked away from all this when it made me money and miserable. Now all it does is make me miserable. There’s no reason for me to continue and I don’t do plastic two faced people. At...