Happy 14th birthday son. I miss you and I miss the fact I am not there to watch you grow into a man, things are coming and the new year will hopefully change things...I just hope the one thing you will one day know is I never gave up, nor will I. It just sucks not being there to give you you're gifts. They are still here. I hope you had a good birthday anyways and had fun and are happy. That's all I ever ever wished for you. Love, Dad. You will travel far, my little Joshua. But we will never leave you... even in the face of our death. The richness of our lives shall be yours. All that I have, all that I've learned, everything I feel... all this, and more, I... I bequeath you, my son. You will carry me inside you, all the days of your life. You will make my strength your own, and see my life through your eyes, as your life will be seen through mine. The son becomes the father, and the father the son. This is all I... all I can send you.