Nikk's Blog of doom!!!

I'm just sitting around trying to peice together whatever I can of a normal life... I have been dragged down this far, there's not much lower I can go.. constantly making deal with my own personal devils just to survive... but of course there is the whole thing that even as broken as down I still have options... I can survive this... Anger and Hatred is fuel... I can use it to feed my depressions and self doubts.. I know that lies at the end of the tunnel and that's the only goddamn thing that's important. the irony lies in the fact that I can go back to familiar behaviors to survive and go busking in Hess village on the last night of the summer and have a damn good time and I already have money in my pocket... it takes a lot more than you think to destroy me... I refuse to go down. Current Mood: Anger. Current Music: Within Temptation, Middle of the Night... (guess where I am at 3 am?) Hate is ravening vulture beaks descending on a place of skulls.

One thing you may not know about me is that i thrive and survive on adversity, it strengthens me because i know at the end of the day, regardless of the wreckage i will not be broken down and I can survive this... I've survived worse and done it with a smile on my face and never lost the good parts of my soul...they may be hidden and buried deep within but they are me.. my ethics, my soul, all the good things that make me me.. they are their, hidden sometimes, hidden more than most of my emotions i can't shut them off but i can hide them and show a different angrier more anti-social face to the world... but at my core i know who i am, just because i tread the darker side of the coin doesn't mean i am evil, or that I don't know what evil is... espescallay when she's staring me in the face thru closed doors and chess game manipulation of the rest of my life...I'd rather be damned and go to hell than pretend to be someone I'm not... and before I'd do anythi

I set around every day mindlessly waiting on the next step and wondering exactly when it's going to come... my patience levels are becoming very low.. it's understandable that If i was a lesser man i would not have this much patience and their are days I wonder if the easy solve is just kicking a door in and creating an Incident, that would at least focus the attention on the problem at hand instead of all this professional apathy...i can sit in jail, it's not a problem, i'd never plead guilty because i'm innocent.... but i would sit for as long as I had to like a spinning top, just because I have No fear... I know what the truth is and where I stand... it's sad that the power of fear is so strong within you, you thought it appropriate to eliminate me from his life.. but if you knew anything about me, you would know i go down fighting.. and I will not abandon my loved ones, my goals or my ideals... No matter the fucking cost personally. Current Mood: Angry.

Now it's your fucking turn to be broken down and be revealed at your core. I already have.. and I showed that I have nothing to hide. I never did... can you say the same thing? It's time for you to be broken down and examined the game is afoot and there is nothing you can do about it... you trust the system to always protect you and your intrests but for once that won't be happening because it's not about your intrests... it's about the best Intrests of that child... and hopefully once everything is said and done you will be proven, it's interesting how the first person in any of this to visit my home shows up early while i am shaving..talk about being vunerable, but i was honest and i was truthful... i doubt that you will be.. it's time for you to broken down.. it's time for you to be exposed to your very core... I had to.. you're turn... i hope it's fun for you to squirm... Current Mood: Determined. Anger is a killing thing: it kills the m

Any fucking time i get any forward movement In this battle and in my life, I get the other shoe dropping and finding out It's all for naught... how fucking long do I have to wait to be told That I didn't do this... If you fucking think I did put me in fucking jail already, you and the powers that be have already destroyed my life... I'll be a goddamn spinnign top in jail, there is nothing here for me anymore... at least in jail being inniocent will get me three squares a day and i wouldn't have to fucking worry about rent... But of course... to imprison me, it would mean I would have actually have had to fucking do something....and they haven't i'm innocent and very, very, very fucking angry. I will stand alone, I will stand angry as long as I have to.. because I am in the end the only thing Between you and Him.. and this is all this battle is about... that's all it ever has been about. Current Mood: Angry. The world needs anger. The world often continues

This is me at my most vulnerable... this weekend I have leave all the ego aside and All of the anger and everything that has driven me and just be me, the person hurting inside and the good father that I am and come out of this as the person I need to be.. i need to show that side... I know that I am not often all that good at often showing that side of my personality but at the current Moment that's no longer a choice I have... I can be angry and vigilant on my own time but when it comes to that little boy it's time to just be the person he needs me to be.. I need to be patient and not lose myself in my anger or in my emotions, but i can't show any weakness either.. I think i'm ready.... Current Mood: Determined. When will you understand that being normal isn't necessarily a virtue? It rather denotes a lack of courage.

It is interesting How I don't let you occupy space in my mind anymore, I didn't even notice the date today until i was doing something else that referenced it.. that's how deeply I hate you, you are a Nonentity in my life, a Nothing, a never was.. I see thru you at the person I am and always will be....You are Part of my past and that's where you'll stay.. Locked in a prison of your own delusions...I don't need to remeber trivial little things like your birthday anymore they are of no consequence to my life.. Court dates yes... but i hope as you continue your death march onto forty that you are satisfied with the ruins of your life and what you've destroyed and what you've accomplished... If for nothing else.. my accomplishments stand on their own they are the one thing you could never destroy.... Just like you can never and will Never Destroy me. Current Mood: Annoyed. The pain of a lifetime—every scrape, illness, and bruise—condensed into a single m

It's about time and waiting, there is nothing to do but wait for the next step, I have patience and I have the time to wait on people, the only problem I have is that it seems I have returned to a former life where everything moves at a very slow pace.. I could go away and become someone else, In places i consider home or a place I hardly Know in another province and I could be free.. But instead i Sit around waiting, brooding.. angrily waiting for change... if i was a lesser man i woul be a much more violent man, But voilence by itself accomplishes nothing and If nothing else I will be seen as the only sane man at the end of all of this bullshit... I am rag tagged and war torn and will continue to be until this is over.. at least at the end of this.. unlike other's I can say that I conducted myself with Honor.... Current Mood: Angry. I've been in worse places than this. And I've gotten out.

I am back to where I started to finish things and resume the uphill battle.... Of course i still have the new viewpoint and I am back to be the person that I was 5 or 6 years ago when moving down here represented Hope for my Future instead of the dreary blackness that It has become... Everything and everyone around me down here with the exception of a few bright spots reminds me of the person I'd rather not be.... There are old Ghosts Haunting the chapel of my mind here that need to be Exorcised.. It's time to focus on the coming battle and what is needed to be done and not the immediate and ancient past... there are people here, there and everywhere not worth remembering and there are things that haunt me that will continue to do so till the day I die... But i made a pattern of moving past them once... I can do so again, My biggest issue is not being dragged down by the things that i choose to let pull me down.. I have to stand strong and be a rock.... Be the war....and the fo

I am so fucking sick of fighting, I am fighting merely to fight agian at this point, Why should I fight these battles.. I could simply walk away from my son and be a deadbeat dad as leave and go somewhere else like Vancouver, Victoria or Windsor and be done with this bullshit.... I am seriously questioning why I leave myself in This place constantly fighting an up hill battle that I am not going to win.. I know at the end of all this no matter the Outcome it will be worth it.. but I don't know how to give up even when i want to stop Fighting... it's in the blood.... There is No option but to continue fighting as I feel I will never ever give up.. but you know sometimes when you are fighting a losing battle a tacticalretreat may be the best thing... Leave the Hot zone and just wait and bide my time and let the enemy defeat itself.. of course doing that Sacrifes a lot of who and what I am and a lot of what I belive In.. I can weather this storm...It's just so damned tiring..

I look around and I see the fact that My life is not as it should be again, I've barely been home 48 hours and The only things that give me peace is holding on to the fact that their are options out there and their are places i can go to achieve peace in both mind, body and soul... I can't tell you how bothered I am when walking around to see camp troops from Huntington park walking around the neighborhood and reminding myself this is the second summer that's been taken away... The truth is that should be my son going to camp, going swimming, going on field trips, But at the current moment that's being denied.. that's ok.. every sacrifice, every battle along this road will have been worth it.. because at the end of the day...It will have been worth It.. for Him and For Him ALone.... One day thing's will get back to normal...The Show Must Go On Current Mood: Determined. The best manner of avenging ourselves is by not resembling him who has injured us.

I'm Home and I have a newfound sense of direction in the derelict wasteland that is my life, All of my issues i feel at this time I can face head on and deal with... somedays now knowing that i can disapeer the whole word feels a little lighter, going away for the extended vacation was a good idea, and One option I can continue to explore when I have the time and the option to... it's better to be fighting batles and dealing with my life with a clear head and a sense of purpose, I know where i can always go to find some peace and I am defintely a little more aware of that now. there isn't a black cloud of despair over my head anymore as there has been in days past... NO fate But what we make.... Current Mood: Positive. The unknown future rolls toward us. I face it for the first time with a sense of hope, because if a machine, a Terminator, can learn the value of human life ... maybe we can too.

It's time to go home... It's time to deal with the real fucking world again, at least now my batteries are recharged and i feel i can take everything on and continue the battle... it's time to be a different person it's time allow the adventures of the last few months be my focal point, I know i can leave at any time in the near future it's just a matter of when i want, and where i want to escape to.. there's a reason i've always had a nomadic lifestyle and when i finally put down roots it was taken from me.. is anyone else responsible for my decisions? NO... but some have certainly assisted with me making touch choices along the way....Time to face shit head on. Current Mood: Determined. When you're out there, the rules aren't weapons anymore... they're shackles, keeping you from the bad guy.

Nothing Ever changes In this world, and everything Is fucking Predictable... Time to go Home and pretend I don't exist again, I swear to fucking god I should have stayed in Windsor.. I was happier there... there are options and one day very fucking soon I may take myself up on some of those fucking options and walk the fuck away...the patience levels are low almost all of the time now.. who the fuck was I kidding when i thought i could find fucking peace.. the reality is the only real peace i will have is at the end.. when i MAKE DECISIONS FOR ME... not for anyone else.. sick of being a prisoner in my own life and I'm sicker still of answering and being for judged for shit i haven't even done... the only good thing about going back to Hamilton tommorow is I can start moving forward and make some fucking changes in my life... It's time to be on the fucking offensive, it's time to do what needs to be done... Current Mood: Angry. Remember my face! It's the last

I could do this, I could move back here and have a peaceful little life starting over and quiet the noises in my head... It would be very easy to walk away and embrace everything that I am both here and In windsor.. My mind is a lot quiter here but there is that factor.. that this is not my life.. this has never been my life and until my life is returned to me I have to follow the path I'm On...once that is said and done and the nightmare is out behind me I can them consider moving on.. choosing to move forward or fall behind it will all be up to me... but before I can do that.. I have to deal with the reality of the present.. i do not like the prospect of going back to my apartment in hamilton and I have forund something in myself this summer i think I felt I had lost.. hopefully going back to my regular life will not dull the edge and I won't become someone who exsists just to keep on living but you know what.. their are options out there... If i need, when I want to... If i

Another day or so and the peace I have found within My mind Is gone, i go back to thell That Is my Life.. SO eacy to escape but so Much easier to be Angry and let that rage consume everything... It fuels me But there is a Chance that it is My eventual downfall... I know that I can find peace but I wonder the cost...I know that at the end of of the game I can walk away.. is it worth I Don't know.. I prefer to face shit head on instead of Hiding from it.. But My life doesn't seem to be worth it anymore.. Only one thing keeps me going, and that one thing will always keep me going... But it seems so fucking hard to keep moving on at this point.. I do not like the idea of going home and I don't relish the idea at all... it's just another empty place that I no longer have any connection too.. soon i'll return to familiar behaviors and It won't change a fucking thing. Current Mood: Depressed. Current Music: Megadeth, The Scorpion. No matter where you turn, there

2 am my time and I am sitting talking to friends about the current situation and what is going on in my life.. and If i question God for my place in this fucking world... My answer is yes... I question everything... When I meet My maker before he sends me into the firey pit he will Have a lot to fucking answer for, And by the way I'm bringing ammunition....I'd have faith If he had ever given me a reason to.. but when every day is as bleak as the day before and the only thing i have to fuckin look forward to is the relationships i have forged thru the fire and flame of my life, I have No need to have Faith In anyone By myself, My freinds and My family...There's No Reason to belive that My soul can be saved.... OR any reason to want it to be saved.... The One Sin i didn't commit will not be the one that Damns me in the next Life...but it will damn someone else... but there is no fucking way you will ever see me repentant even at death, I will face my maker Fully armed, I

The War Continues, i have slept and I am am less edgy than I was before, but then the reality hit's me that I have another 3 more months of nothingness, more time to plan but more time for these people to put up barriers and weapons in front of me.. I have to be proactive I am not a soilder in peacetime... I am a warrior in a bloody battle in which when it comes to my destiny and my soul there will only be one winner..as much as they attempt to distance themselves from the fact that their are two concurrent court matter's in front of us, they are intertwined, trying to tell me that you know the rules better than I do.. better fucking make sure you have them in front of you like I do at the touch of a button... this is a battle instigated by one who was once very close and meant everything to me, now all i can comprehend for her is absolute hatred, but she has played the fucking system like pawns...Daddy's little girl has eliminated me and gotten exactly what she wants by de

The Battle is Not Over, But there is starting to be some available light at the end of this dark tunnel i exist in several steps away from my left foot being in hell< when someone shows that they do not have all their cards on the table and the cards that they do have are slowly crumbling...it'd time to be on the offensive and get some answers, it's time to move forward, or Move on.. I'm built for walking thru things not for Walking away, Not this time... I made a few promises and not just to me...I swore to always protect that child and even from his mother's madness...IF i am going to hell for the sins I have not done... I will drag you and the entire fucking system down with me... When you and your associates have taken everything away from me there is not much left to live for.. but here's the fucking funny thing I've managed to live, albeit not as happily and as content as i would have been otherwise, but i have found moments of peace in the last year an

It should be this Simple. it should be Me and my son and the doggies on vacation right now and/or living here with my parents. It should be nothing to this world to just hang out and do nothing and wait for the world to pass me by with some simple type of job and simple place is this world and existence, that's not something i could ever settle for but it is something i wish I could have...I wish I was that person that settled for a normal life and normal menial job, I had higher expectations for myself and for the person I choose to be with, If course some people are bound and determined to create an illusion of history repeating itself, if for nothing else to eliminate me from the equation, but that will never happen.If nothing else with this new calmness in my head I know i can take on the world and whatever i throws at me, i know that I have options and I know that I can know peace, I know that should i decide to leave agian, I can go anywhere, anyplace and find myself a simple

I actually like the fact that right now without all the troubles and depressions in my life that I have gotten away for a few weeks and Really other than dealing with concerns at the tail end of things I for the moment have a little bit of peace and quiet in my mind, this is one of the actual reason i can see light at the end of the tunnel because I know that if it comes down to it I can find quiet I can find a sort of peace in my head and in my soul, there are options. I am not defined by who I awas. the reality of the world is not a nice one but If one chooses, Which I do not yet, one can walk away from it or take a momentary distraction from one's life. it's nice to have a little semblance of peace of mind even if it is fleeting... it's better than None at all, and it is a pleasant feeling knowing one can one day come back to when the war is over and all the battles are done. Current Mood: Peaceful. I never will have peace of mind. I'm not constructed that way. So

For all the time i have been cast as it, I don't mind playing the Villain.... I don't think i am one.. and I for sure Know inc certain Situations I am not the villain, But if playing the villain will keep someone Innocent from being hurt more than i will willingly play the part of the greater evil, even if it's the one on the other side of the battle that is at the end of the day the truly misguided one... I am strong enough to be the darker knight, a grim protector. there will come a day soon when judgement will be at hand.. and when he is old enough he will one day be told everything... At that moment and only at that moment alone he can choose who was really the villain, But for the Moment I don't mind the wait.... at this point things are moving forward in the exact structure and manner that they are supposed to and as the flames burn higher over your illusions and make believe it will make my vindication that much easier....but for the moment i will torture mysel

I am a warrior, I would rather Not be one But that is my lot in life, everything in one way or another since childhood has been a battle, even in the happier times their was always something to fight something to rail against... this is not a life I want for my child... He does not have to suffer the never ending battle that my life has became and/or has always been...She should know better... I should not be sitting around every waking day waiting for the day that the battle will end.... that i can close this war journal and go to my resting place...but I know that place will not be welcoming even tho it will be a long and justily deserved Hell that I go into... at the seventh level reserved for the Violent and angry, it still beats the layer reserved for the betrayers and the treasonous.. I know exactly who I am, I am a Warrior, I have existed at the void for so long, Staring a hell's gate... it has stared back into me as well, it is a part of me. I am angry, I am violent about w

Predictably, without a doubt the System Fails again, November is my next court date... Can the wheels on this bus stall any more? the last week all the positive energy that I had received from my life has been torn from my fucking bones. only anger remains against my betrayer and the ones that assisted that betrayal, from her I am not surprised but the fact that it was a concentrated effort assisted by the state and now when their stories do not match and their games are falling apart does it become clear that They will not allow me to win because IF I win and prove them all fucking wrong.. this they cannot allow... so they stall, they play games, they don't allow a man to have his freedom, because without freedom one is dead.. It's about the game, it's what funds the system, why make a decision or have the wheels of justice move any faster when you can stick something in the wheel and make it grind to a halt... I'm used to the stall tactics, I'm used to the fact th

There are times when I relaize I need to calm my mind and apprecuiate all that is around me instea dof being anger, emotional and driven, there are days where I should just be enjoying the backyard with my parents dogs and forgetting that their is any outside world of course every positive emotion i can produce at this time leaves me a little more empty after a little while because i realize there is a void and something, Someone is Missing.. and if i think about it too much it will break my heart... what's left of that black mass that has died inside my chest and soul anyways... At least I can use the burning Emotion that is fueled by fire and anger to my advantage now... better than just sitting here despondent as a metaphoric heart bleeds away my very life blood sapping at my will.. this time next year everything will be different and somehow so much more familiar..NO more time for self doubt....I know why I hurt and why The fact the moment right now even tho I am happy, Happie

I am here, I am me... I am not going any place, the person I am is the person that is always going to be the one standing, beside Him and against you.... Never Fading away... It doesn't matter where I've been, where I came from, It only matters exactly who i am at this very moment and What that represents... you can't destroy me with ancient history and you can't take away my happiness, because I am so much more without you than anything I ever was when I was with you.... I will watch the world burn and I will watch everything you have so carefully placed in my path as they tumble down like dominoes, You choose to play the game, I will not show any mercy I have no Reason to anymore.. I have made my fucking choice to stand against you, there is no more appeasement, there is no more reason to reach a peaceful solution i swore a long time ago to never speak to you again, any further conversation will be done thru the lawyer's and/or third party's. after this one l

Things are coming together and soon the battle will be brought to the forefront... the easiest way to battle fucking lies is to arm yourself and surround yourself with the truth. another chess piece was returned to the board today and i will confirm another one before weeks end.. it's time to play the game.. it's time to win...I can finally see the fucking light at the end of the tunnel in all this darkness. I will win, I will be able to change the situation and change direction in my life and have control again, something I was never willing to let go of anyways.. No One ever has been able to control me No one ever will.. I'm too strong headed the best you could have ever hoped for was a fucking Leash on me and that child....but i will teach him my ethics and morals when i get him back and he will be stronger for it... One day when he's old enough I will sit down with him and tell him everything and you know what after that it will be His decision to hate you not mine

I have options to leave Hamilton and just as easily I can just slip away and fucking disappear from this world, I have done so this summer... I could very easily be just a forgotten memory When I choose to, it would be very easy to just fade to nothingness, But i don't know how to do that... I have to stand up and fight, I have to win, I can take the physical and emotional pain.. I have spent the majority of my life as the nomad, never knowing where i was going, but always headed in some unknown direction, at least the one thing i had then that i don't have now is a goal a clear path to cut down everyone in my path that got in my way.... now I have destroy everything I have ever loved to have the most important part of my soul back, but if that is the cost and the price that I have to pay, so be it.. I have never backed away from my destiny whatever It may be.. I would rather pour the gasoline and watch my world burn if it would save my loved ones from harm, but it's time

I am blessed with a support system that Is larger than I want to admit some times and I have Family and friends that Will stand with me against the pits of hell, even tho I usually choose to go it alone so no else get's hurt... I am more focused than ever... If you rip out a man's heart and soul he will travel thru hell to get it back, I am more prepared than ever for that task.... I just wish I was feeling so damn Old. I Have seen Hell Twice before it is not a place i wish to return to or have him experience ever. I will make it so that my heart can never be ripped out of the Bones of my back Once again, the slow Knifes hilt is buried so deep inside of me it has become a part of me just like the bleeding, but I use it as pure Nightmare fuel, to do what's right.. Not for revenge... and that's the difference between you and me.. I am stronger in silence than you can ever be With your Yelling and screaming, Checkmate. Current Mood: Determined. Current Music: The Fight

It's Very hard to continue to care and Do exactly what is right when Every time I do so, I get knocked down..... of course No one every taught me to stay Down, A lifetime of being Restrained both physically and mentally and then forced to do the same to other kids against my will, will do that. I Don't back down. I don't Know how to lose. there is no other option than to move forward. my only problem is that i can see the pit within and without.... I loved the woman once why the fucking hell would she put me and my son thru this hell? Do you actually want my boy to suffer thru some kind of hell similar to the one that I went thru? You Know everything, i told you everything heart and soul, and yet you wait years to use it as weapon on me? was this always the plan......to eliminate me? that will never happen... I'll fight you with my dying breath, and you will never be strong enough to defeat me.... I will not let his life be full of you and your lies.... there is so much

...And just as fucking soon as I am given hope, another area of the government takes it away from me. why feel hope when the prison of my own life is going to continue to completely fall in on me.. the darkest places in my mind could not have conceived of my current hell... all i feel right now is that I am in a fucking Pit and that pit is closing in around me, why would this fucking happen? i am at the fucking point where i am about give up..I will never give up but now I have to examine other options.. the first of which is on the agenda...but one day this will be something that will not be forgotten about, every level of the government here is corrupt and they all go hand in hand in protecting each other.... Current Mood: Pissed Off. Ah you think darkness is your ally? You merely adopted the dark. I was born in it, molded by it. I didn't see the light until I was already a man, by then it was nothing to me but blinding!

Another day, but it will be very interesting to see how things move forward from this point.. Things have changed and it's no longer just a pyschial feeling it's an absolute fact, there are still a lot of things to be done and plenty to be sacrificed but I feel I have nothing to worry about except the battle that is coming.. i have the upper hand now and I have the weapons at my disposal... All i have to do is continue on the path that is right and keep holding my head up high and everything will work itself out.... the game is upon us.. it's time for the game to end. Current Mood: Angry. I think that wherever your journey takes you, there are new gods waiting there, with divine patience - and laughter.

Things can change for anyone in an Instant, that instant happened... their is a new balance in the world for me as of right now.. the rules have changed and while going away in itself was a positive thing i now have information that changes everything and alters the gameplan significantly, you may be able to break a man but you have to destroy him and kill him completely to ever truly get rid of him, you have failed in that effort.. I will Rise stronger like a firey demon and use all of my resources...it's no longer time to justify any action to anyone.. what you have taken away from me... I will make my best effort to protect and only protect from you... this has always been the endgame... the light is at the tunnel...this is where it ends.. soon. Current Mood: More determined than ever. When Gotham is ashes, you have my permission to die.

Remnants of my life are coming back to me and I am starting to remember what my life used to be like before I was miserable every day, I am already having a blast hanging out with Ma and Pa barker and playing with them and going for walks.... the only thing better than that.. other than being able to take him to Texas of course would be spending two weeks with him here with just the doggies, me and my Yoshie... but you know what there will be time for that espically if the next step in my life is a go... it's just nice to sometimes remember who I was and In many ways still am.. it's very nice to be happy too. Current Mood: Smiling. All that is gold does not glitter, not all those who wander are lost; the old that is strong does not wither, deep roots are not reached by the frost. From the ashes a fire shall be woken, a light from the shadows shall spring; renenwed shall be blade that was broken, the crownless again shall be king.

I have decided I like being Happy, even tho i may have a shit storm of a battle to confront I have places to go where I can truly be happy and have people fucking Care about me... there's more than one place.. there is always Family... and there is Always windsor and my friends to escape to whenever i want.. i still have a one way trip to get away, I think i can handle anything throw at me... I think the battle will no longer be so damn hard as long as I stay true to myself and keep the memories both of my own personal experinces and of the times with little man alive... those are the things i should be holding onto and not letting dark clouds overbear....as long as i can go to that little place of light inside my mind I will be fine... this War just got a little Easier. Current Mood: Determined. The truth is that it is natural, as well as necessary, for every man to be a vagabond occasionally.

It's weird getting up in the morning to deal with actual real life things after being gone from my so called life for the last month... it was nice to live in fairy tale land but reality crashes in on me hard and it's time to deal with the things that actually need to be dealt with... Instead of waiting on the next move I dealt with it, there's no reason with my current renewed and fresh outlook on the world that I should be backing down from fucking anyone... this is my life, this is about only one person and it's not me.. just because my head space is better does not mean i walk away from the things that are Important or or the one thing that means the Most in my life.... It's a battle... It Will be Won. it's time to Fight.. It's time to Fight this battle with a renewed Vigor... I am still tired of the fighting but for once i can finally see a light at the end of the tunnel.... there will be an end. One Way or Another. Current Mood: Determined. There