Nikk's Blog of doom!!!

a new sensation.. one i don't totally understand.. all the chips are falling into place.... Current Music: Silent Lucidity, Queensryche.

today i got a sign that everything i'm planning is right... job interview next friday nigara falls.. sometimes it's good to go home... these are the things that matter.. nothing else.. follow your heart and do the right thing.. in that rest self assured... Current Music: You Could be Mine, GNR

good riddance to bad rubbish.. trust no one.. cuz i know yer lying... and the only person that wouldn't be able to do california is yourself...you'd lose yourself.. whatever is left of you... you've stripped yourself so bare do you really know where your soul is anymore? you're so embroiled in the darkness i can't find you anymore.. how can you find yourself? Current Music: The Headless Children,W.A.S.P.

looks like i'm doing some kind of hamilton centric project for this stupid hitory project... well it's the place i know the history of best... might as well do something there or lundys... the teacher is kinda of a putz.. remind you of any other teacher's we know? lots of good looking girls tho.. big boobies... enjoying my patheticx little life.. starting to move crap towards st. cath... can't wait to get out of this shithole city and back to another shithole city... i guess this is enufff rambling for one day... Current Mood: Go Fuck Yourself. Current Music: the trees(live), Rush.

had a good weekend away.. no tantrums this time.. we hung out and he got xmas present's late.. never seen a happier kid... had pizza... well he had pizza i had crust.... note to self.. buy a bag of pepporni's next time.... hung out with joe it was alright... i think i'm really gonna like living in st. cath this time.. hobby shop for trains downtown and a comic book store with a huge quarter bin... should be cool and will keep my intrests high.. i never bothered exploring the city the last time.. distracted... should be an interesting year... Current Mood: Really Fucking Happy (first time in a long time) Current Music: Coma, Gun's And Roses.

still waiting on my loan.... doesn't seem like i can catch a break this week.. hopefully my loan will come in tommorow and all will be good in the world.. i'm getting really sick of noodles and soap.. gotta buy groceries and spending all my time at the university and watching movies becuz i have nothing better to do... man my life has taken a decidely boring turn of late.. but that's probaly a good thing.. time to grow up...material things are meaningless... they just end up being thrown away... Current Mood: not happy Current Music: Hallowed be My name, Alice Cooper.

i did i'm much happier now.. when you face the bleak face of the other half of thirty and stop pretending to be 17 maybe then you'll face responsibilty and stop playing games... Current Music: Dust and Bones, Gun's and Roses.

i feel like taking a hatchet and chopping some skulls off at an amusement park... weary soul.. lying cocksucker... Current Mood: pissed off and Hungry Current Music: Used to love Her, Gun's and Roses.

Only yesterday they told me you were gone All these normal people, will I find another one? Monkey on my back, Aching my bones I forgot you said "One day you'll walk alone" I said I need you, does that make me wrong? Am I a weak man, are you feeling strong? My heard was blackened, It's bloody red A hole in my heart, a hole in my head? Who will help me up? Where's the helping hand? Will you turn on me? Is this my final stand? In a dream I cannot see Tangled abstract fallacy Random turmoil builds in me I'm addicted to chaos Lights shined on my path, Turn bad days into good Turn breakdowns into blocks, I smashed 'em Cause I could My brain was Labored, My head would spin Don't let me down, don't give up, don't give in The rain comes down, cold wind blows The plans we made are back up on the road Turn up my collar, welcome the unknown Remember that you said "One day you'll walk alone"

There's a time for living Time keeps on flying Think you're loving baby But all your doing is crying Can you feel Are those feelings real Look at your game, girl Look at your game, girl What a mad delusion Living in that confusion Frustration and doubt Can you ever live without the game The sad, sad game Mad game Just to say loves' not enough If it can't be true Oh, you can tell those lies baby but you're only fooling you Can you feel I know those feelings ain't real Then you better stop trying Or you're gonna play crying Stop trying Or you're gonna play crying Stop trying That's the game Sad sad game Mad game Sad game Thanks, Chas Jack

goddamn it where's my fucking osap already.... gotta eat at mcdonalds.. yuck.... anyone wanna buy some cd's?

Hey Fuck... i am looking for a hand to the gentlemen attending Windsor....uh, can you hook me up with some guidance...serious ...

back in town since last night.. saw a very happy lil man glad to see daddy today... actuaslly thinking coming back to this cesspool might actually be a good career move... gotta think of what's important... thinking about doing master's in history at brock or laurier but i doubt it... prety sure i'm done school forever... i have everything i want.. and/or need.

you must live a boring life because i write more thaqn you about nothing and my life is a million miles more interesting even when i'm doing nothing but hanging with freinds... you do remeber what those are right?

in welland now spent the last two weeks in brantford and then st. catherines. god dammit i can't wait to be finished university. got a C in howsam's class and i thought i would fail.. guess that's good... was left alone for xmas and told stop harrassing... that won't be soon forgotten... a few more days and i'm back to school woohoo... can't belive i'm actually looking forward to moving back to welland. later.