Nikk's Blog of doom!!!

War, they say, is the answer of those who have no arguments left. I'm not going to listen to anyone give me a fucking lecture on what I should and should not do when I'm fucking starving to make sure I have cash for my kids counselling. It will be there, I don't give a damn how in the fuck I get to it, but if you aren't willing to do your fucking job and take care of your end if the deal, don't expect me to keep trying to get blood from a stone... I will always find a way, but that way usually ends up with me in deep debt and with no further uphill than I was before... This is a war of a attrition and it's a war if minor moves, but when someone supposedly on my side is telling me how and when to move... That's not going to go over when there's almost an outright refusal to do anything, and it's been like that for six fucking years, I can't continue to crap out every dime I have to fight this war if I don't have back up and if you're vi

One of the greatest evils is the foolishness of a good man. For the giving man to withhold helping someone in order to first assure personal fortification is not selfish, but to elude needless self-destruction; martyrdom is only practical when the thought is to die, else a good man faces the consequence of digging a hole from which he cannot escape, and truly helps no one in the long run. Maybe people haven't noticed lately, but I have no qualms and no regrets being the villain of there particular horror story, as long as my ethics are better than there's and I don't back down and I do what's right, I don't have any fucking guilt from others who care only about themselves when I walk the fuck away....I've never been anything but the bad guy in some peoples minds so I've adapted to that being my defining characteristic, I'd rather be your enemy than you're Freind the way that some people in my life have fucking treated me... And that goes double fo

People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain. ..It's your move now, but we are at the end game... everything has happened as expected and all it was is another way to stall time and to continue to play the fucking game... a game I am tired of... I can predict you're next move and I know exactly what it will be...