Nikk's Blog of doom!!!

War is not heroic. War is not exhilarating. It is dark. It is dreadful. It is a thing of sorrow and gloom. That is why people fear war. That is why people choose to avoid it. If I intimidated you then I did my job to get this going in the right direction. I'm not about to stop or backdown. This has always been about me and you, and not him. Somehow, somewhere, someone needs to change that. I've got a mean streak a mile long and I am never going away. The knowledge that you fear and are intimidated by my is merely empowering and shows exactly who is truly in the wrong here. It's a chess game and I'm in for the long haul. You are not the only one that knows how to play the long game. You want to throw curveballs? Cool, I can deal with that. I'll start throwing punches. I'm not backing down from you, your friends or anyone. It's time for the long game, you know how to play it better than anyone, but I've been playing this game with you just as long.

You can figure out what the villain fears by her choice of weapons. Nothing frightens me. I AM fear. Last week was telling, how ever much I am frustrated by the family court system, I am not intimidated by it, And I am not afraid of it or you... however, you Fear me, which has much more to do with what you have done to me than anything that I have done to you.. that's telling... it's noticeable when others realize that this has been going on over a decade. No one, least of all my son should have any reason to fear me, but you, you have plenty, and it's all about you're emotions over the tangled web you have weaved.. you barely exist in my world except when you have to... i sleep very well at night knowing that you don't. I intimidate you, and i give you reason to be scared, and that's not in my character at all... so how have i become the boogeyman in your mind and how much of that have you poisoned my son's mind as well? Their is no blood on my hands

I know, because I was like you once. Bitter. Alone. Mad as Hell. But I didn't let it consume me. I put it to work. In the moment when I truly understand my enemy, understand him well enough to defeat him, then in that very moment I also love him. I think it's impossible to really understand somebody, what they want, what they believe, and not love them the way they love themselves. And then, in that very moment when I love them... I destroy them. I make it impossible for them to ever hurt me again. I grind them and grind them until they don't exist. Somehow I always knew at some stage of the game I would be standing alone, but I am still standing. Now it's time to put thoughts and plans into motion rather than letting someone else dictate the course of action. I was dangerous before, but let off the leash of someone Else's muzzling of me? I'm that much more dangerous, and I'm never going away or backing off, I'm just turning up the volume. I've g